Confusing times call for Blogging...

So, right now, at this very moment I am at work. Which, now days, is where I feel I am at the most. I've been trying to figure out my future and so far I have come up with a few decisions. First, I am going to Spain in Jan. of 2010. One of my best friends in the world has agreed to go with me on this journey and in the Spring of 2010 we will be moving to Denia, Spain for four glorious months. What will we be doing? Popular question. We are going to be teaching English (Learning Spanish!), working in their kitchen, doing missions on the beach, or whatever they need us to do. Basically, were volunteering for living space and food. Which is all we need. I'm so excited about this trip because were basically giving up everything to rely on the Lord. I have always wanted to do this.

Mark 10: 20-22 says "20And
he said to him, 'Teacher, all these I have kept from my youth.' 21And Jesus,
looking at him, loved him, and said to him, 'You lack one thing: go, sell all
that you have and give to the poor, and you will have treasure in heaven; and
come, follow me.' 22 Disheartened by the saying, he went away sorrowful, for he
had great possessions."

I have always wondered if I could give up everything and truly follow the Lord. Even though this is not the same thing, in that, we are not giving up everything we have but we are leaving everything for 4 months and relying on the Lord to provide. I have been realizing things, objects and emotional crutches, that I rely on that are not the Lord that I am trying to give up and it has been kind of hard. Right now, I'm trying to save up enough money to be able to take this trip and this, already, has been something I'm trying to learn to lean on the Lord for. I get kind of stressed out about if I will be able to earn enough to cover all of my expenses while I'm in Spain. So far I should be good, but I will be needing a lot of prayer! I don't know if all of this makes sense but basically the Lord has been showing a lot to me about myself lately. Which bring me to the next decisions that I have made.

The second decision I have made is to take time off of school. I'm going to wait till I get back to Spain before I start a graduate program. I think some people think this is a bad idea, but I'm so sick of taking the easy way out. I am sick of school and I really want a good break.

The third glorious decision is that I'm going to finish what I start. I have decided to learn guitar and eventually run a marathon. We'll see how far I get on this.

Welp, that's all for now...I'll write more later!